Friday, October 30, 2015

pieces of october

Anne of Green Gables was one of my favorite book series growing up, and I'd have to agree with Anne about Octobers.:

there's nothing like it.
  the rain drizzling down the car windows as you sip hot chocolate on the way home from school.
walking through campus in a sweater and still feeling the chilly wind.
stepping on the first crunchy leaves.
decorating the dinning rooms with pumpkins.
listening to your family make thanksgiving plans.
that rush of overdue homework that sort of melts away when you stop to breath in the scent of the dying year.
and people seem a little bit friendlier, a little more approachable.
as the air grows colder, people gather closer for warmth.
tea becomes an absolute necessity.
and you can finally wear those striped wool socks and boots for the first time.
sweaters, sweaters, sweaters.

and the birds are migrating again.
and there's a sort of melancholy drenching nature as it dies away into russet and brown.
a melancholy that is so beautiful it hurts, and somehow, it feels so peaceful and full of joy.
maybe because the trees know that their dying leaves won't turn into dust for nothing, but will continue to nourish the next generation of leaves.
the world is full of a hushed magic that makes itself apparent to those that stop and notice the little things.
all of this, and more, is October.

Tell me what you love about October in the comments below,
lots of love,

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise...

beautiful font "Even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise":
I think Victor Hugo puts it perfectly

Recently my life has been insanely busy. Last night I was rushing to finish a paper two hours before it was due because I didn't get home until after 8.  And that's not unusual for me to be finishing assignments minutes before they're due, or getting up before five to get things done.  This morning I didn't want to get out of bed, or wake up at all, because I knew that the next few weeks would be insane, and things probably wouldn't calm down until December. But I'm not here to complain about how busy I am, because I already did that this morning. (-;  I'm writing to tell you, you can make it, through whatever you're going through, and you will.  Sometimes my brain hurts from trying to keep on top of everything.  I have an huge fear of failing and looking stupid, and ironically, it makes me want to give up and disappear into thin air sometimes.

   And then I remember what I know to be true.  If something comes to a bad end, it is not truly the end, because there is a reason for everything.  I think that sometimes because I don't have enough trust, I end up thinking that everything depends on me, and that makes me tremble and break.  Here's the secret I've learned:
Nothing depends on me besides what I decide to do in the situations I am put into. 

  By no means do I always remember that.  In fact, I forget it more often than not, but deep down, I know it to be true. And after I rant and complain and freak out, once I actually sit down and think, I know it to be true, and it comforts me. I guess the moral of this story is, even when it feels like the weight of the world is on your shoulders, the only weight is that of your own decisions, and even then, you are Loved and Cared For.  It's a comforting thought, isn't it? So don't give up, and neither will I. 
Sending out lots of love to all of my lovely readers,
P.S. It's finally starting to be fall here! It's like sixty-five degrees and it rained today. Beautiful! What's the weather like for you?
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